I've been really depressed lately since I will be losing my job soon. :( I'll most likely find a new job soon (hopefully before my job ends). I've applied to a few job postings that I found, but there isn't a lot available for my field of work. If I don't find anything I might just head back to school. My heart bubbles with anxiety and stress everyday. I feel sad, angry, bitter, depressed and everyday I feel like crying. I'd rather not explain why I am leaving my job (they aren't firing because I'm bad though), it's complicated. Let's just say they don't have room for me, in terms of resources. I'll leave it at that. Now that I have that out of the way (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻, let's get on to the point of this post.
I've been trying to distract myself from this stress/anxiety and find something positive to look forward to, and take my mind to. I've been doing this with lot's of things: kpop, anime, coughtoomuchanimalcrossingcough, and now Lolita fashion.
I really like the style, and I'd think it would be a great hobby to get it into. I don't really have any "hobbies" per say. I don't count kpop, anime, playing easy ds games or working out as hobbies, since I'm not as invested in them as I could potentially be in order to count as hobbies, well maybe not working out, I work out a lot hehe. I also don't want to make my work a hobby anymore, I don't feel like coding or design "for fun" anymore, especially since that's what I do all day at work. I know that Lolita fashion can be a very expensive hobby, something that requires a lot of time in the long run, in order to acquire pieces. That's why I find it so appealing (not the expensive part haha). I like how I can take my time with, and it's something I don't think I will lose interest in over time. I've been thinking about it for a good six months (more or less) without actually purchasing anything. I've been slowly reading, gathering info, joining local FB pages and LJ Lolita community pages, talking to members, asking questions. I still have a lot of reading to do though, but I'm taking my time.
What mainly attracts me to Lolita fashion is how beautiful and how it gives me a feeling of awe and nostalgia. It basically makes my heart go dokidoki, my eyes sparkle and my mouth water in absolute and utter delight. I see it and I make grabby hands! Could there be any other reasons really? Haha. On a more technical level, I love the elegance, detail and craftsmanship in the pieces.
I've also recently ordered a custom OP (one piece) by Pinkly Ever After
, who I met at AN in Toronto. It's a risky move ordering an expensive hand made piece for my first ever purchase ^_^;;;. I hope I don't regret it, plus I can always sell it if I don't get fully into the hobby (hopefully not). Before I make anymore purchases, such as my basics, ie: blouse, petticoat, socks, tights, etc. I'll probably wait until I have a new job too. *siiiigh* Meanwhile I'm just going to read more about brands and immerse myself more into the "theory" side of Lolita fashion. I'm especially attracted to Country and Classical Lolita, I really like Sweet Lolita too, but I think I'll wait until I've established a better knowledge of Lolita fashion before getting into Sweet Lolita.
Sites I've bookmarked so far:
I'm basically writing this for myself, to document my thoughts, feelings throughout this.
So let this post be the beginning of my journey into the world of Lolita fashion. :D